I'm going to start this off with my positive foot forward. Let's look at my high for the month of January. This month is a whirlwind of assessments in my district. It literally felt like I wasn't teaching for days on end because there was some sort of assessment that needed to be finished and scored. Well after all of that, my crazy high stress levels from assessing, and the little owls anxiety, we made it through and all of them made progress in one way or another. I can know breathe a little easier and we can get back into the "fun" learning that needs to happen before the next waves of assessments come up.
I feel like I also need to share a blogging high as well. (Going to bend the rules a bit here. Shhhhh! Don't tell.) I started this little blog in November and wasn't sure where I wanted to go with it or where it would take me. I have posted here and there but it wasn't until my winter break did I really grab ahold and go for it. I have loved experiencing the joy of typing what is happening in my classroom, sharing things that are working for my little owls, and getting wonderful comments from all of you. It is a great feeling to know that others enjoyed reading what you took time to type and are even wanting to use those ideas that you shared.
Here is where I veer off the tracks and head down a path of darkness. My low actually just happened yesterday. Now I have had my fair share of bad days this month but for some odd reason yesterday just put me in a whole other place. I came home just questioning everything. I wasn't sure I was an effective teacher anymore. We have been working skills to "death" if you will and I still have a good handful that are not grabbing onto them. I know that little owls learn at different rates and that their light bulbs will eventually burn bright but I had hit that point where I didn't know what else to do. I have taught some of these skills since September!!! However, even after I tossed and turned all night, I woke up this morning and stepped back into my classroom because no matter how much I feel like they are not getting things, I can't just give up on them. I will continue to push forward and they are just going to need to rise to the occassion.
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~Erin
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